Sunday, June 28, 2015

Year 1 Finished , seriously? It's a year ago ?


Okay, I don't know where to start writing about my Ireland life for this whole year
Hmmm... Start with friends ?

Friends :
This year, I have met so many guys.. so many people... and also, lost so many friends since I have not contacted them for so long time.
It is great to hang out with them sometime, especially 5 of my bros , YQ QW BH WB IB , these 5 guys , although they are not the best, they are not the smartest , they are just normal people, but when 6 of us stay together , everything is AWESOME . I don't know why, I can be so real in front of you guys, I can tell u guys everything , seriously I can't do that to any one here.

This year, In Ireland, I met so many new friends, like Mon, Johnson, Ms ( My roommate , although we don't chat much but we are so good) , KY, ZY , SW , JESS , JA , SJ , and more and more ... they are my best friend here I guess. :-)
In college , I seriously don't have friend who is really close to ? I have no idea.. Just can't join in with them, I don't know why, I tried, I attempted and I really upset, because eventually I have no a close friend in my class, beside YW , hmmm, all my expectation was actually wrong, I though I could get some great friends, share some culture to them, and also learn from them as well. But I failed , anyway, actually not really like staying in the class, no one will care about you, no one will talk to you , I know maybe my English is poor, but it is my second language , Sigh...
But when I talk to EU students, they are always patient when listening to you, because that is also their second language , that is why I am looking for a school in EU , but finance is a problem.
Hope will get better in the second year :)

Experiences , Knowledge :

Hmm..Actually I did learn a lot basic filming skill in this year, I know how the film works how it progress and also how to make a film.
From a guy who did not know any shit about film, and now I can make my own short film , which is actually my biggest improvement in this year. And also, I know that filming is not only shooting a great image, it is all about telling a great story, tell to the world what you tend to tell. That is why I had decided to make a short film about Social Media nowadays, and eventually I did the film myself, and it came out not that bad, at least I am satisfied with it as it is my first short film.


-IGNORANCE- my first short film, and from making this film, I actually learnt a lot , I found my mistakes, I found what can I improve, thats why film maker always encourage new film maker to make their first short , no matter what, we should do it and learn from it, if you wait until you've learnt everything and tend to make a best film, its impossible , because you have no experience , you don't know what should you improve :)
Really appreciate the help from Johnson, Michelle, and also YW.
What I should improve :
1) Make a clearer story, its actually maybe too ambiguous for people.
2) Get a ND filter in the sunny day shooting, and I would not lose the highlight detail
3) Get more frames for transition when editing
4) Should get a sound record , although it is silence, so I can remove the song and make it with  only the noise in the room, and it won't be so weird.
5) Express more about action when directing my talents.
6) A better Story
7) Get a full power battery for my LED light , and it will be powerful.
And maybe there are more and more , but this is what I can think about now

Furthermore, cooking skill has actually improved a lot and a lot and a lot and a lot , and also a lot.
When I first came to Ireland, I don't know any shits about cooking, even how to fries a rice? hahaha
But now I am able to cook whatever I want to eat , and also I learnt my mother's best dishes : Mama Meat ? Hohoho which is actually a Black soya sauce pork meat ? hahah
And also I can be able to take a flight my self, manage my own finance, do bank transfer myself, and solve many problem by myself :)
Moreover, Drinking skill is insanely great now, if I am not trying to be drunk, I would not :)
Hahahaha


When I am oversea , I actually see more, and get an opener eye in here.
I know how europe country people live their life when I was in Germany ,  I am living in my gf's aunt 's house, and had been living as a european style person for 2 weeks. Its really a great experience!

And also, I know the currency is powerful!

1 - Malaysia - Salary RM4/Hour - Work for 3 days - RM120 - 150 - And You can now buy a Blue Ray Disk (Rm100-150)
2 - Europe - Salary 5Euro/Hour - Work for 2 HOURS!! - 10 EURO - AND YOU GOT A FUCKING BLUE RAY FOR ACTUALLY 10 -15 EURO !!!

Okay , thats why a lot of people wish to come here and work? hahaha
but the labour here is also actually high and TAX.
Hope I can get to work in US , which is my dream, but also if I can work in europe countries I would also be super happy ! As long as I am not actually earning Ringgit , but I hope so.


And last...

GF ? haha
 I have to say that, she is actually the person who can tolerant my temple , COMPLETELY tolerant about my temple , so I guess thats why we actually did not have a serious argue or fight in this 8 months?
And also, I did not announce it because I actually want to try not showing for public what I am actually doing, what we have done. That is why I have not posted a status for so long time, I want to try to live in my own, and not in the virtual world, what is the point showing my life / relationship for everyone ? the main point is live in the present and be happiness with your love one. I am actually so happy with my life now.
But I also share my life in Instagram , because I am actually trying to learn about my photography skill, and in the same time, at least let my friend know what I am doing, but I won't share my whole life in internet.
Being a media student, I know how powerful is the media and internet, so I am now being more mature when using internet.




Okay, Malaysia I am coming! Bringing my knowledge , my independence and going to meet my family, I love you Mom, and Dad!! I never said I love you to yous, but I did when I am in Ireland, because I know I should say it when I actually do :)




Its really fast, has been an awesome year :)


Sunday, August 10, 2014

Ireland

Have been staying here for almost 2 and half months ago, it is really great that I can able to become so independent !
This is one of the purpose to come here as well.
But I really want to hang out with my Malaysia friends.... miss them so much
How are you guys ? how is it going ? well ? it has been a long time since I hear from you guys telling me staffs, but so appreciate that some of you guys seldom chat to me , it was insanely awesome to hang out with youqian when I was here at 10.30pm and 5.30am in Malaysia, hope someday you wont die hahaha.

Uni life is really boring without friends ,trying to meet more guys in here, met a good guy who is called Shrey from indian , he is a really fucking kind man , and he is brilliant !
Sometime walk around with him in the midnight , he tells me a lot of staffs , his mind is really good , like to share something with him , hope he could get a good girl :D

The english course is gonna end soon... actually I have learnt nothing besides listening and speaking has improved a lot when I was bluffing with teachers!LOL

Looking forward to SEP , hope to know more local or international students :D


These day , I am thinking about that I have done so much stupid and bad things in the past ... I was so immature , I hope I will be a better self in the future
I should have considered before I did those stupid staffs
A cup of water is filled with ink, it spoiled the water ... how can i solve it ? Fill much and much water into the cup of water , it will be clean someday : )
Honestly , I really changed a lot , hope i can become much nicer :)

I have no idea what to do .... am I just a guy who does not even know anythings about you? I do care about you , but I cant say anything ... It might be just a normal guy who has appeared in your life , but you are not .
Go through it , give my self some patient :)

Night .

Friday, May 23, 2014

Positive


Hell yaaaaaaa... It is coming soooooon... My Ireland life
Feeling excited , but also reluctant to leave this place....
sometimes , it takes something from you , and you will get return
but don't expect too much on that , cause it might not be possible sometimes.

Today went to shopping with my mom , really spent alot of money ... when buying those skin care product , really shocked me , so fkxxx expensive man! damn it
And I realised , shopping with my mom or dad , they will always encourage me to buy sth , no matter it is cheap or exp , they think that is what I need , then i should buy.
So , very sorry , i bought alot of thing.. hahahaha
2 Jackets , 1 Shoes , some books and stationary haha
But I used my salary too.. hahaha

Damn , this few days really felt lonely
Feeling like I am being isolated from the world
Those friends went to kampar , and some to Taylor
Now I am not able to find someone to watch movie .. sing k .. chit chat ...
Really , the feel like shit
Hope I will get more friends when I am in Ireland

Have nothing to write again , but I had so many ideas just now , damn hahaha
Nevermind , forget it .


Had a chat with binghong just now , finally I have someone to tell my past stories , haha
But he goes and sleep so damn early , like a kid ! hahaha

Stay positive man ! I could be better !
Don't even look back and blame anythings , cause it does not worth if I do that.
I really want to start my life now , improve my self , really lag behind so long time ago.
Really really miss those day I always improve myself , never gave a word to blame
I was so mature ? Lol
I can do everything which I want to do , I practice my drum everyday , jogging , reading , and the impossible thing which will never ever happen , and I did it : Everyday Sleep at 10.00pm , WAS I CRAZY? LOL

but those time I was really felt the fulfilment of my life



Heyyyy world  , Please don't joke with me again , I am really tired of it , FUCK.
I though I have it , but it does not all the time :)


Friday, March 14, 2014

Life , Suck.


Time flies , still missing you guy , AC 1 .
Everything has changed after graduated , why you guys are not keeping in touch ...Sigh...
Hope someday we can gather together , I wont MISS the game again ... so sorry that I was missing the game so many times when gathering .
How are you guys doing ? is it fine ? Where is our gather ?
Haizzzz.... I think we have no any chances to see each other again ... Farewell guys , do your best , just like the UEC , you guy did really well :)
Four months ago , did you guy miss the ac1?

Fortunately the ac2 is still keeping in touch , feel so good when I have been with your guys.
Your guys are really steady !


Now I am working at JPO ,when the CD player which plays "Two is better than One"  , I mentioned some memories which are the best memory in my life . Jan - July 2012 , two years ago . That time I was relaxing , I could be myself which is really real , and also , approaching something. :)
That time I was trying my best to train my drum , I was being the best of myself which is Confidence , Hard Working , Relax . Can I go back to that life one more time ? Missing those time ... and especially .. you , the person which you were .
Now my life is really suck...
but luckily I am going to study soon............ IRELAND , which is the last choice and the best choice for me ,hopefully there will not be so many chinese guys. HAHA
June ... it will be the time which my target goes!
Europe Trips and immigrate !
Hope the last 3 months I can cherish with my friends , family .

Something is really annoying , please , care about an other one around you , not only yourself .
Remember what people have done to you . Don't ever live with yourself . I am really disappointed . DAMN
But you will always not be forgotten , and also , I am missing the guy which you were . You totally changed.


Life ...................Suck , but it is time to make it perfectly . :)


Wednesday, December 25, 2013

嘿嘿!

时间就这样渐渐过去啦~!
圣诞节自己在家看戏 打game 看戏哈哈哈
真的很闲啊!
昨晚很开心哈哈
和很久没有见的朋友们聚在一起 : )
吃得很爽很快乐哈哈哈哈
然后抽到了一个杯,如果可以我会带去英国的!

其实。。。一直说英国英国,自己都不知道自己要不要去?
唉...
好像快点解决这个问题啊。。
到底怎么办?我到底要留下来还是出国..很纠结很纠结啊...
很累
越来越迷茫
科系...也开始越来越迷茫..
到底要怎样...
成绩出来后,什么都mess up了。。唉!
Sunderland - Film Production ,希望。。希望可以坚持下去 :)



然后 工作也很烦啊!
到底要不要打给我的!!!~~
我要on 别人的工了啊!!
唉!!



时间好快过去了
ielts考了,感觉还ok?哈哈哈希望可以6.0!
真的很紧张啊那是speaking test 一直走来走去 上厕所
哈哈哈哈 好彩都过去了!


结果下午学guitar,晚上就去和五条蓝爵聚会,另加瓜瓜!
真的很喜欢很喜欢和你们聚在一起!
每次fulfit 聊天 塞人 粗话 都是我们之间的沟通方式
尽管怎么ful , 最后还是很多话题,还是可以聊到很多心事!
真的很希望大家可以时常这样出来聚会!
因为真的很开心哈哈哈!
下次的旅行也一定要去!


第二天,早上和jiaju , 文浩 , youhui , bryan
四个人去找工
结果找了半天
很后悔拒绝那个ck啊!
太鲁莽了!不应该那么快拒绝别人。。。唉!
搞到现在不懂要去哪里做工。。。。。。
半天吊那样勒。。哇liu。。。。
快点快点快点打给我吧哈哈哈哈
对了,和这群人一起也很快乐哈哈哈
也是很费!但是只可惜大家没有聊心事哈哈
这就是他们和文五的不同啊...
在一起很快乐很快乐,但是就是不聊心事
这就是我们相处的方式吧!哈哈哈 也很不错!


晚上就是xueyi家!
看到xueyi也是很累 一直忙,可是自己什么都不会又怕越帮越忙
然后这个聚会也很快乐哈哈哈
大家一起吃饭 散步 聊天!
恩 大家以后也要聚在一起!!


有些事情,真的要慢慢仔细的观察:)
不能再太鲁莽,不知道为什么很怕那天会到来啊!

总有个人,会很体贴的绕在周围吧?
珍惜



^_^!


Monday, December 16, 2013

颓废

哎哟 我发现我懒惰到连电脑里 一首歌也没有,一个照片也没有哈哈哈哈
然后每次听歌都是开手机~~
今天过得有点颓废~
这几晚都失眠啊!唉
结果都睡到无天日,每次起来都要12点了哈哈
结果很累
然后今天起来,停了一点bbc radio 来练习一下ielts
然后就吃饭洗澡~
之后就开始颓废,看着天花板哈哈哈

然后就开始看Nick的 Unstoppable,其实蛮好看的哈哈哈
希望看多点这种书可以激发自己?哈哈哈虽然还是在颓废

书本里面大多数说的是要相信希望把?还有信念很重要~要相信上帝的存在!

跑去网上test ielts 结果那个listening很奇怪,乱乱跳的哈哈哈 所以做了一点就懒惰了~
不过觉得listening有进步一点了!哈哈哈

等下晚上和ziyi 学guitar!可是我的guitar线断掉很久了哈哈哈哈
只好和ziyi借!

刚和文浩那个sohai打了一场dota
不知道为什么 这个人 很奇怪 哈哈哈 不是他奇怪,是我对他的感觉很奇怪!
虽然没有和他说心事,但是总喜欢和这个人一起
不知道为什么?就会很开心哈哈
我们之前的谈话虽然都是废话,粗话   但是总觉得有很深的友谊在里面?哈哈哈
有时和他去吃饭就聊天聊天都可以聊很久的哈哈
不过我都没有和他说心事那些所以也很少聊天哈哈
最多有时废一下?
哈哈哈哈

学会珍惜 ^^

开始觉得其实自己也不在乎什么了?哈哈
看了一篇很有意义的文章
3个蜡烛一起亮,你看不出谁最亮
但把其中一个放在眼前 你就会发现它是最亮的
然而你在放回去,会发现都一样

这就是我们在爱一个人的时候 会把他们放大来看,觉得他们很重要
但是只要把它们放回原本的位置,其实才知道每个人都一样

放下不该留恋的东西吧,学会珍惜,知足 才是最重要的!

好想赚了钱去背包旅行!
3月吧!好像快点去哈哈哈!

Ohyea 人生比以前更开朗啦!

Ielts test 希望可以6分!!不要对不起自己就好哈哈哈!!

Life does not suck when you are trying to put some efforts into something right.
I won't even struggle for something that is not deserve for me, I , exactly , will be better .

Sunday, December 15, 2013

好久没写了~哈哈

刚一口气看了文龙的日记~
自己也有一点点感触~
不知道为什么还是很容易被他影响
很喜欢听他说他自己的看法那些~真的可以学到一点东西~
虽然也没什么机会了~不过还是非常的感恩!

就这样毕业一个月半了~
因为ielts的关系还在做米虫
但是每天在看书,觉得真的很充实哈哈~
第一次看完一本英文故事书!还真的很好看!!
还会再去买哈哈哈

今天看了黑色水母的 我们从吉隆坡搭巴士去英国 的背包旅行故事
其实真的很想这样到处去走走,看看外面的世界
以前的我觉得很浪费钱 很浪费时间
但慢慢的爱上旅行 珍惜身边的每一刻...
也许人长大了 真的会变 变好 当然也有变坏的..
这就是为什么自己一直坚持去英国念书的理由哈哈~
好希望可以那个奖学金帮家人啊..虽然这个也没很贵 ,但是还是不忍心
只好带着以后要好好孝顺他们的观念坚持下去了!

不知道为什么 最近对每件事情开始迷茫
就连打鼓 也开始迷茫....变得不再那么爱练习
不知道为什么 过渡期吧...
然后开始在徘徊,到底是不是要读film 这个course。。
因为虽然讲是比较有兴趣的,但是真的很怕读完回来,没有市场啊。。
希望可以一辈子留在英国..
一直在寻找人生的意义
我也还没找到..哈哈


最近心情没有很好
但是我想这是给自己一个最好努力的借口吧
好好过自己的吧^^
人,始终会变


Ielts coming... UEC result too... SHIT